Post by laura on Jun 14, 2006 15:57:47 GMT -5
I know that this has nothing to do with music or anything, but i would like your opinion about this.
My grandad always kisses me and holds me tight. and says he loves me and he always asks me if I still love him. but I get the impression that he loves me in another way. once he said that he loved me and than I asked "don't you love your other grandchilderen". and he said "yes I love them to but I love you the most" I find it scary two years a go he held me tight and was kissing me and I was helding my lips tight, cos I swear if I didn't he would stick his tongue in. than he asked if a boy ever really kissed me and I said no. than he said oh I will learn you one time. he heard that someone was coming upstairs so he went away. I was so thankfull that someone came upstairs.
if he comes over I never close the curtains in my bedroom so people across the street can see us. but than he turns out the light. and asks if I'm going to lay on the bed with him, and he will start kissing me again. I will even get scared a bit, and I'm not like that.
after he leaves I always wash my mouth because I feel sick. I don't trust my grandad anymore, while I loved my grandad when I was little. but i'm starting to hate him. I don't like it if he's here and I don't go to my grandad and grandma anymore.
and my mother would get mad and say "why don't you never visit your grandma and grandad anymore, one day they will be dead and you will regret it." but my mother doesn't know how scared i am to go over there. i'm scared that my grandad is home alone and that he wants to go further than just kissing. and i will be afraid to say no and to fight back. I know it sounds really weak but it's the truth.
sometimes I have to go somewhere and no one can bring me. my grandad will tell my mother that he can bring me. I will tell that I will
ask a friends farther or somebody to bring me. than my mother will say: "oh come on you can spend some time with your grandfather". and thats the last thing that I want.
one time I got bit mad on him, and he said: "don't say nothing to your mam or dad, okay?"
he also wanted to give me money, like than it would be okay that he touches me. Well I didn't took the money of course.
he also wants to buy me golden earrings, while he never buys my grandma anything.
right now he's on vacation so he doesn't bother me right now. but I know already he will say how much he missed me and stuf.
well at least i'm not scared for a while.
I'm sorry that I bored you with my problem.
kisses laura
(I just heard tupacs song Changes on the radio, a beautiful song)
My grandad always kisses me and holds me tight. and says he loves me and he always asks me if I still love him. but I get the impression that he loves me in another way. once he said that he loved me and than I asked "don't you love your other grandchilderen". and he said "yes I love them to but I love you the most" I find it scary two years a go he held me tight and was kissing me and I was helding my lips tight, cos I swear if I didn't he would stick his tongue in. than he asked if a boy ever really kissed me and I said no. than he said oh I will learn you one time. he heard that someone was coming upstairs so he went away. I was so thankfull that someone came upstairs.
if he comes over I never close the curtains in my bedroom so people across the street can see us. but than he turns out the light. and asks if I'm going to lay on the bed with him, and he will start kissing me again. I will even get scared a bit, and I'm not like that.
after he leaves I always wash my mouth because I feel sick. I don't trust my grandad anymore, while I loved my grandad when I was little. but i'm starting to hate him. I don't like it if he's here and I don't go to my grandad and grandma anymore.
and my mother would get mad and say "why don't you never visit your grandma and grandad anymore, one day they will be dead and you will regret it." but my mother doesn't know how scared i am to go over there. i'm scared that my grandad is home alone and that he wants to go further than just kissing. and i will be afraid to say no and to fight back. I know it sounds really weak but it's the truth.
sometimes I have to go somewhere and no one can bring me. my grandad will tell my mother that he can bring me. I will tell that I will
ask a friends farther or somebody to bring me. than my mother will say: "oh come on you can spend some time with your grandfather". and thats the last thing that I want.
one time I got bit mad on him, and he said: "don't say nothing to your mam or dad, okay?"
he also wanted to give me money, like than it would be okay that he touches me. Well I didn't took the money of course.
he also wants to buy me golden earrings, while he never buys my grandma anything.
right now he's on vacation so he doesn't bother me right now. but I know already he will say how much he missed me and stuf.
well at least i'm not scared for a while.
I'm sorry that I bored you with my problem.
kisses laura
(I just heard tupacs song Changes on the radio, a beautiful song)
